Edgar Just Kidding

Some time I can’t help feeling this way. I hate being sad even if the outside I am really happy but the true I am really sad in the side. I still can’t get over about what happen months ago. Is something that I will never forget as much as I try it won’t leave my mind. I am good putting thing in back of my head and forgetting everything but this time is so differently. Is it because I think about it all the time? Is it because every time I listen to music reminded me of you? Or because almost everything I did with you was my first time? What is really going on? Why do you still keep showing up in my mind? For some reason I haven’t never felt this way for a stranger that I meet on my 21 b-day party. You really meant a lot to me and for some reason I still don’t understand why I was different with you. You put up with a lot of shit with me and you were still there and you didn’t give up on me if I told you I will change and I have change. I can’t help it Beans I really can’t I really wish we could start over again but I have the feeling it will never happen. I really need to be strong and move on with my life like you did.